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Answer for question 4428.

If you had the extra time to cultivate one specific talent or hobby, what would it be? Why does it interest you?
If I had more time, and devotion, I would want to study more languages. I want to improve my French, and I also want to learn German, because that will help me with the other Germanic languages, and possibly even Russian (I know the alphabet, but I don't know shit about Russian grammar). I also wish I had the money to visit these places, I feel like that would make learning them easier.

I can't find a job anywhere.

I looked EVERYWHERE for a job, NO PLACE is hiring.
Nobody puts up "help wanted" signs anymore. And if I go in and ask if they're hiring, they say "no, but you can fill out this application anyways, we might call you in the future" which is complete BS, and then if you do apply, then they just don't like your application for whatever reason (not having enough experience, HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO FUCKING GET EXPERIENCE?!!?!?!).
And yet, I know tons of people who have multiple jobs at a time, and I can't find a single one.
If I can't even find a part-time job while I'm in college, how the fuck am I EVER going to have one after college?


Answer for question 4396.

Do you play the lottery (such as the PowerBall or scratch tickets)? Have you ever won a significant prize? If you did win a jackpot, what's the very first thing you'd do with the money?
So far, I've only played lotto once (I picked the numbers from LOST, lol), and I didn't get any...haven't played since and it was about two/three years ago? I would definitely play again, I just haven't been up to it.

Answer for question 4378.

Who is your favorite movie/TV/cartoon character of all time? Why? What is the special significance of that character to you?
James Ford, aka Sawyer, aka Jim LaFleur from "Lost". I love miss his hair, smile, dimples, southern accent, and one-liners. Oh, and his character development was also great.

Answer for question 4296.

If you could go back in time, what period would you choose to visit first? What interests you about that period? Would you want to live there permanently if you could?
Either the 80s and see MTV, Billy Idol and Madonna in their prime, or go back to the 90s and experience it as a 20-something (I was born in the 90s, but my memories of it are kind of brief). I would love to have been able to experience the grunge era and see Nirvana in concert.

Answer for question 4328.

Do you put bumper stickers or other decorations on your vehicle? If so, what types are they -- humorous, political, etc? What's the best sticker or sign you've seen on someone else's vehicle?
I don't have any bumper stickers on my car at the moment, but I would definitely like to add some, nothing political though. The best one I've seen said "Honk if you love Jesus, text if you want to meet him" as an anti-texting while driving thing.


A couple entries down, I wrote last summer about my dog being sick. She was feeling fine for a few days after that though, but then all of a sudden when she was feeling just slightly bad, my parents euthanized her (it was 11 days after I posted that). :(
I miss her so, so, so, so much, there aren't enough words to describe it.
We did get a new dog, a puppy, and although I love her too, no dog could ever beat my first one.

As for an update about everything. I've been at community college for two years now, and I was applying to other schools, hoping to transfer. My dream is to go somewhere far away (preferably across the country) but since my parents are paying for it, they won't let me go anywhere that's "too far". I applied to a few schools that they suggested to me, and I got into some schools. However, my parents won't let me go there. WHY DID YOU LET ME APPLY THERE IN THE FIRST PLACE THEN, IF YOU KNEW THAT YOU WEREN'T GONNA LET ME GO?
So right now I'm just very pissed at them for lying to me.

I just absolutely cannot stand being here at home. Everyone I knew from high school is away from home, having the time of their lives, meeting all new people, being in a whole new environment, living my dreams, and I'm stuck at home and I have no friends to talk to.

I don't like anybody here, I hate the people here, I hate how everybody here is constantly stressed and fast-paced, and that's not me. I'm more laid back and relaxed. Also, there's no hot guys here, so I not only have no friends, but there's no guys here that I want to get friendly with either.

That's why I need to leave home so bad, that way I can find a new way to live, new people to hang out with, new things to explore and try.

As for my body problems, yeah, that hasn't really gotten that much better. I look the same, I still suck at working out, I still suck at eating. I don't know what it is, when I look in the mirror I look fine, but whenever I take a picture, I gain like 20 pounds.

I hate school because...

it constantly distracts me from exercising....when i have so much fucking homework to do, and then when i actually do have spare time, the last thing i want to do is workout.

Some good news though, is that I just got my drivers license (finally!) yesterday! Now all I need is a car and a job, and then as soon as I have enough money I can finally leave this shittown.

my dog might die.

My dog, my best friend, who I've had since I was 10 (I'm 19 now) is really sick with cancer. She has had stomach issues for a very long time, but just this past week, she wasn't eating anything, if at all, so my mom decided to take her to the vet. My parents took her to the vet this morning and when they got back, they told me about her illness. She has a type of blood cancer that has enlarged her spleen, and has ruined her digestive system. She's my best friend in the whole world, and there is absolutely no human being that can match up to her, and there's no dog that can ever replace her. My parents want to put her to sleep soon, but I don't want them to. They tell me "do you want her to suffer?" and I reply "she won't suffer, as long as she has her loved ones around her." I told my parents years ago that if she ever became sick, I would never let them put her to sleep, because I think of it more as murder than mercy. But they just won't listen to me.
They're bringing her back to the vet on Monday, and if she gets a little better over the weekend they won't do it to her then, but I know they're going to eventually, but I will not let them do it.
I've been crying about this all day, just thinking about losing my best friend depresses me to no end. I can't live without her, I really can't.

I think I know what my problem is.

I do too many things because that's what others want me to do. I never do anything for myself. I never go out with my friends because (not only do my parents not trust me) but because I know my parents wouldn't approve of what I would do with my friends. And because I don't hang out with my friends, I didn't have anyone to go to my senior prom with last year, so I didn't go. It would feel way too awkward going alone. And so not only do I not hang out with friends, but then I also don't have a boyfriend because I know my parents wouldn't want me to anyways. And now it's too late to find a boyfriend. I'm 19 already, and I have never had one. No guy wants a girl with no experience (and all the guys that have no experience themselves, and the ugly-geeky-ones that nobody wants). I don't want to be the loser girl. My friends from high school weren't losers, and I actually had a lot of friends, I was just never best friends with anybody.
And since I don't have friends to hang out with here at home, I wanted to go away to college, hoping I'll finally get real friends to hang out with, but my parents didn't want me to because they don't trust me (my brother went away to college his first semestre, and got kicked out because he partied too much, so they somehow think I'm gonna be like that, but I've ALWAYS been more responsible than him). So I stayed home for college, and I absolutely hate it here. All my friends are away, and I constantly see them tweeting "OMG I got so hung over last night!! Gonna do it again tonight!" and it drives me nuts!
Even if I do transfer and go away, I'm not gonna find friends, because no matter where I go, everyone there will already have friends, so no one will want to hang out with the new girl.
I really want a job, but I can never find one, and I still don't have a license or car, so I'm stuck at home all day everyday.